Recently I've been good- by that I mean, I've felt good about mysel. I've felt happy about life in general. I've been grateful for all life has given me. I've decided worrying and anger only hurts yourself.
I haven't felt like this in a long time, let alone for long periods of time.
I discovered it takes a lot more effort keeping up the "I feel like shit, I need someone to console me" gig than letting myself enjoy every day and moment. It's so easy to let the light in- even if you are in the lowest of lows. Just know it's there. And you can let it in, little by little.
[Marc Johns illustration*]
Guys, it is so much easier being happy. Just being.
Being yourself.
I discovered it takes a lot more effort keeping up the "I feel like shit, I need someone to console me" gig than letting myself enjoy every day and moment. It's so easy to let the light in- even if you are in the lowest of lows. Just know it's there. And you can let it in, little by little.
[Marc Johns illustration*]
Guys, it is so much easier being happy. Just being.
Being yourself.
That's not to say shit happens. Because it can and it does...
Yesterday I was a little too high on positivity that my concentration was not where it needed to be.
Needless to say, I crashed the front of my car on a sidewalk and a tree stump.
I did not realise I set the gear on Drive, when I needed it to be on Reverse- and being affected by my overall frenetic state, I didn't hesitate in pushing the gas pedal.
No, I wasn't drunk. I hadn't had a drop of alcohol.
I don't know what it was, but I screwed up pretty badly.
Needless to say, I crashed the front of my car on a sidewalk and a tree stump.
I did not realise I set the gear on Drive, when I needed it to be on Reverse- and being affected by my overall frenetic state, I didn't hesitate in pushing the gas pedal.
No, I wasn't drunk. I hadn't had a drop of alcohol.
I don't know what it was, but I screwed up pretty badly.
I immediately felt awful, naturally, but realised (in retrospect) that most of my mortifiation came from "What will those who saw me hit the sidewalk think of me?!" Whenever I asked myself that question, I would cringe.**
After I realised what was happening, I had to stop myself and say:
"Hey. It's okay. You're not perfect."**
Everyone screws up.
Let's not forget to be grateful.
It's silly to look back on things and see how you're affected most by judging youself through other people's eyes***, instead of letting yourself be and grow. Learn.
After I realised what was happening, I had to stop myself and say:
"Hey. It's okay. You're not perfect."**
Everyone screws up.
Let's not forget to be grateful.
It's silly to look back on things and see how you're affected most by judging youself through other people's eyes***, instead of letting yourself be and grow. Learn.
Happiness is a warm gun (bang bang shoot shoot) is anyone and anything at all that's loved by you.
And lesson proved: no matter how bad things may be or can get, it will get better.
Maybe not immediately, but it will.
And lesson proved: no matter how bad things may be or can get, it will get better.
Maybe not immediately, but it will.
Just don't be so hard on yourself.
* One of my favourite illustrators!
** And this is not to say that crashing your car into things is okay either.
*** Speaking for myself here.
That is great news, Mariana! And I love that you wrote such an inspiring post about it.
ReplyDeleteThis past year I've been working on being as positive as possible too:D
I read somewhere that your reaction to things is pretty much all that matters and I've kept that in mind ever since.
Will check out the illustrator as well!
blueeyednightowl.blogspot.com/
Thanks!
DeleteYeah- reaction really is important, I think.
All it takes is the effort to think positively, and you're already on the right track :)
awww, i'm glad you've been feeling this way! it's always much better to walk around with a smile :D
ReplyDeletethank you for the reminder, it's always useful :)
Right? :) A smile really goes a long way!
DeleteI love this! Well not that you crashed (so sorry about that) but that you are taking on a positive perspective. I think perspective is everything, and I too feel that being pessimistic or negative (which we all can be) is much more draining and truly a waste of time. That's not to say that we don't need those down moments, but as you say, it will get better in time! :)
ReplyDeleteI agree- it's okay to feel (and let yourself feel) sad, but you just have to know when enough is enough and get over things. I mean, any sort of grievance or sadness is only human.
DeletePositivity has really changed my outlook on many things :)